[Chance]

That is the question that I must answer with the next hour or so. Should I try out-patient treatment again or should I in fact go to in treatment. I have a few things that I would loose if I went to inpatient treatment. I would loose my handyman position here where my apartment and utilities is completely paid for in exchange for 15 hours of work a month. As far as other things I think that I might, I don't know what I would do with my new dog Lady Luck. But I also know that everything that I have been doing hasn't been working.

I am sure that it would be a long treatment plan of 6 months to a year. I just don't know what to do. I guess really I do know what I should do. I am afraid to go there. There is also a community support if I choose to go into out patient. Well I just want throw this out here and see if I get some responses and what you all think that maybe I should do. I am willing to do anything really. I don't want to do what I have been doing and being the person that I am today.

Vic