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Originally Posted by Got It Hi Dallas Alice,
I remember your name from the "other" board!!
Did you by chance get banned from HB? I am just curious - boy they are little hitler's over there!!!
Take care and try to remember your using days at their worst!!! |
Hi...I was hoping some folks here would remember me
I'm sorry, but your name isn't familiar? Perhaps it was time for a new moniker?! Thanks for reading and replying to me--I'm looking forward to getting to know the folks over here.
No, I haven't been banned from HB...yet! But there is hardly anyone left over there from the group of folks I first met and "clicked" with, and some others just got banned also, and I knew it was time for a change of venue. It was the oddest thing, about two months ago around the end of Feb., one of the 'ole gang who had gone away to rehab several months ago and was doing great had relapsed and posted a call out to anyone and everyone, and especially those "who knew her when." For some reason I went to the boards after having been away since the holidays, saw her post, and started writing again.
In one of my posts I posed the question of where oh where has the old gang gone, and a poster whose user name I didn't recognize started a thread with my name on it and gave me some hints as to where to look for those I'd mentioned. I could not believe all the people who had been banished. Finally last night I read between that poster's lines and found this place, though, and I was soooo relieved and happy when I saw the names I was looking for. If they hadn't kept their user names (or variations of
), I may not have found them, so I decided to do the same with the hopes that someone would recognize me and we could all reconnect and post happily ever after!
As to my quandry with my methadone...I hear exactly what you are saying, and when I'm rational and on the upbeat side of things, I know that where I am is where I'm supposed to be, but...when the loneliness and the "what's it all about-doubts" creep up on me, I just don't know why I keep on keeping on with this methadone. I'm scared to let go of it and give weaning off a try...I know myself too well. That tells me I'm not ready, but to be honest, it's becoming a financial burden on top of all the rest. When I read your last sentence, though, and I do think back to what I was like and the way I acted and my suicidal ideations that have stayed at bay for awhile now, I know I don't dare do anything too soon or for the wrong reason.
I am struggling with wanting to know when the time to go off it will be right, though, like how I knew it was time to do something about my pill addiction...how will I know when it's time to do something about my methadone maintenance?
Alone with my thoughts too much again,
Dallas Alice