[PaperDolls]

Well - my sore throat is gone but I got a message from the Dr. office that my strep test came back negative. I'm still feeling crappy, just really run down and sort of "toxic". So, I called the Nurse and asked her to do some blood work. They are testing for mono, and my iron, and I asked them to do HIV. It's been a while since it's been tested. Boy, it's gonna be nice to wait around for that call. I just hope I start feeling better.

I feel like I'm worthless here at work, my mind is even tired. I slept all day yesterday, literally all day. I physically could not get myself out of bed yesterday. I could not stay awake. I know I haven't been eating enough lately. It takes too much work sometimes and I really don't have much of an appetite.

I've been feeling so much happier lately and now I feel down because of this crap. I wonder if it all in my head sometimes. Like, something always has to be going on. Grrrr!

I think it will take a few days before I hear anything about the tests. Sometimes, I just wish they would find something and diagnose me so I know there is actually something wrong with me. I wonder if people think I'm crazy sometimes.

~doll