I have always had a care about putting on makeup and wearing the right clothes. It was all part of my masquerade in keeping my problem hidden. No one guessed I had an alcohol problem. I still care about my general hygene and appearance but now I do it for me and not for keep up appearances. My sparkle is back in my soul.
I feel TONS better - mentally and physically. Some days I look in the mirror now and I think "bleh" but that's normal. Some days I look in the mirror now and I think "Lose some weight Fat-so" but that's normal. Somedays I look in the mirror and I like who I am and what I see. That is a miracle.
Hang in there cuz your own miracles are just around the corner!
Suga