[heartache]

I have been doing some self research and I gotta tell I do NOT like what I have learned. The biggest being the fact that alot of whom I am today stemmed back from growing up with an alcoholic parent. I never really thought it had much affect on my adult life, boy I am wrong.

I am in a relationship with an active crack smoker and have been for seven years. I have allowed myself to be put through hell and let my children come along for the ride! I am very codependent and an enabler. I just can't stop!

I have hit some very hard realities about who I am and who I have allowed myself to become. The picture is not pretty. I do not wish for any child to go through what I have been through, yet I am here living the nightmare all over again.

I am new here and do not know too much about how all this works, but I do however need the support from anybody willing to listen to me whine, cry, complain and beat myself up. Oh and don;t forget making excuses to continue what I do!!!!

Thanks all in advance for any help! Do do also help with what i have gone through and am going through I will also be able to provide some insight to others too.