Good Morning..
Well, I am back already.. I am sorry. I should not have posted at all. I was feeling SO bad last night, my anxiety was over the top, and I didn't think I could come back, to read anymore about Miracle for a while. I was so tired, yet I could not sleep. Soo anxious, and upset. Just over all a basket case, and sleep was what I needed most, yet I could not get myself to go there.
Ranae, Thanks so much for your support.. I really only knew Miracle through SR, from the last couple of years here. I will miss her presence around here, as everyone. She was a true bright light here. Always sending prayers.. Something that is so important to me.
I did finally get some sleep last night. Enough that I do feel a little better. Thanks so much for posting.
Thanks so much for caring.
Cheryl,,
I was worrying about you last night. I am glad you posted on here. Thanks.
I am so shocked,. I know she was sick, but I just did not expect that. It was a
terrible thing to come and read,, and like I said, I read a little on SA, and I could read NO more. I don't know what happened, and I can't bring myself to know yet.
How are you handling? Are you OK? I know you were close. I know where she is, and that makes her passing a bit easier, and i know that it is MY anxiety that is and was really driving me on top of just the loss of such a wonderful person around here.
It just reminds me how vulnerable our lives are. No matter how hard we work on recovery, our lives are all mapped out. That scares me sometimes, and it shouldn't. It makes me angry that it scares me. I know who is in charge, and it is not me.
I worry about people around here. I so hope all are well, and handling this as well as they can, and not using.
Thanks for posting, I know this had to be hard for you.
I am here for you as well.
Please don't forget that, ever.
Love you both,
Becky