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oh God...taht is so lovely....I only just noticed the thread...thankyou so much Rose....now can you tell my brain those things and make them stick......I have never felt worthy....totally 100% never felt worthy of anything I have or am.......I wiah i coudl see myslef through someone elses eyes...just for a few minutes.......I wiah I could make this self dowbt and pain go away...i have been here befroe....so many times.....does this happen to others?
how do I heal myself? how? how do i make all this stuff go away? how? how do i even contemplate loving myself and feeling worthy.....why doesnt god help me ...if im a part of god then why do i feel so disconnected?...why do i feel like i dont belong here?.....i dont.......
why am i rambling on like this? becaus when im left with me alone I hate it...i hate being me...i hate the way i look for starters and i hate the way I feel......
oh god why cant i just like me just a little bit just so i can stop feeling like this?
Thankyou 2stop...now you are a godsend...maybe god has just sent you guys along to remind me of this stuff once in a while...maybe one day it will sink in....i love you all thankyou.......
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