[Done_With_It]

I die tomorow, if I lose my job, my animals die, my mom dies, I get into a car wreck, what if so and so hates me, what if..........

Why am I doing this to myself I wonder? I know full well that the 'what if's'
usually never come, statistics show like 98% of the time they don't.

I know 'Worry is misuse of the imagination', I know all this, I study it, I learn it, I know......

But since I've stopped doing meth, 20 weeks now, I am not able to control the what if thoughts like I normally do. They just pop in my head, when i'm sleeping, driving, walking, talking, etc.......... It gives me such anxiety. My heart starts racing, my face goes red, or completely white, feel like I'm going to get sick.

It's embarrasing, people have even asked me 'OMG What's Wrong'?

lol, I don't dare say, well What if my dog gets smashed by something and dies on me? Then what will I do?

Cause there's no logical reason for me to be thinking that she may?

Anyone else ever go through this? This makes me miss those days on meth, where I did't do this.