Oh man...I have been too sad to even talk about my brother. I am also very angry with him. He won't get help with his drinking problem...hell, the cops here won't even do their job! He was pulled over driving drunk last week..the officer let him drive hom! Happens al the time here....he is on probation...had adirty ua for marijuana.....went to AA for two weeks to impress his boss....drinking and drugging up a storm again...he calls me on the weeeknd on my nextel..it has a two way feature...saying he wants to put a tire around him, set himself on fire and die a "awesomely miserable death" calls in the middle of the nite asking me if I am having dreams of dead bodies burning..I said NO! He says okay..I'm not worried then....he is smoking some 'legal' weed an atypical psychedalic can't pronounce......he says he talks to God when he smokes it, and goes into a 'bubble'..he takes the dog with him sometimes.....he refuses to do anything for his son..says it's not his..it's mothers....his son don't need him! He can come around when a teen..he treats women badly......a woman from his AA group jumped from a bridge in town a few weeks ago and he was laughing saying she was just white trash! I almost assaulted him!! Oh that made me mad!! I am so sickened by his behaviour.............my kids are saddened and scared of him...several years ago in TX he almost shot a girl in my home with a sawed off shotgun!! had to take it apart and hide it under the house!
I don't know him anymore..it feels like he has finally died,,,,,,,his only death left is the physical one and he is headed straight for it.
Sorry, ya all I juts had to gte that out......I can't even cry anymore about it.....but I know one day, probably son he will definitely be either dead..or doing hard prison time. I pray for him, encourage the AA meetings, tell him I have faith in him..but I am almost about to just stop speaking to him..my kids get too scared and upset....I feel guilty..but my kids don't deserve to see and hear his crap!.and he doesn't want me telling him he can make it.....there;s nothing else to do but let him do his thing..and I'll do mine.
