Grimey....
Great post..
stream of consciousness...
There was one thing that jumped out at me so hard I got a bruise.. ;o)
Actually....
Your life is
more than worthy of living...
Ya just gotta stop shooting yourself in the foot.. ;o)
You are at an age where life is very confusing and overwhelming... and way too many times.. there is not enough love.. support and communication with those that can help you navigate life by walking beside you and guiding you...
Your depending on those that are just as lost as you to move you forward in life...
Bunch of lost people.. eh..?? ;o)
Add drugs and alcohol or any using to the mix.. and there is a certifiable recipe for insanity and life chaos...
And trust me...
No one gets to take that path unscathed..
You cannot walk a path of self harm and come out smelling like a rose..
Your gonna bleed.
I know you are hangin with the people you do for a reason...
It might help you to look for the reason behind that reason..
Why are you clinging to people that are self destructing..??
You have a choice to make your life better.
And just you taking the time to write your initial post says you want a better life.
So.. if you want to be a winner for you... you better find some winners to hang with.. in whatever form that takes for you...
Your friend rich kid...
Money only makes it easier to kill ourselves...
Why not walk outa the pit your in so that he can see it can be done.. ??? ;o)
This is YOUR life Grimey...
What you do with it is totally up to you...
I hope you start making some better choices for yourself... ;o)
And come back often..
talk to people here...
get a handle on a better way.. for its out there...
YOU just gotta change direction...
Praying for you buddy...