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historyteach · 03-05-2006, 07:27 AM

OK, most of you all know this stuff, as I've posted about it here and there. And I'm not sure I want to post this or not, but, I'm throwing it out there.

I've been going through so much stress this year. I moved, and rented my house; it's not working out. The renter is always late; is not doing the work agreed upon for a lowered rent; and just sent me 1/2 of the month's rent. When I called about it, he said he didn't have the rest until this week.

I got bumped out of my position as a teacher, and put into a charter school. It's been horendous. There has been a consistent lack of administrative support from the first week. An example will suffice. A girl who swore at me and walked out of class, as asked by the dean of students, at the parent meeting, what *I* had to do in order for her to come to class! I've been a teacher for over 20 years. When kids cut class; when they swear at teachers and walk out of class, they are disciplined. Not here! This event happened the first week of school! There is a clear political basis for this treatment.

The lack of support has now gone to outright hostility. The new principal and the dean both called my old principal, to ask about my behavior, saying I was combative with students. They pulled this stunt right after I filed a grievance against them with my union -- for lack of support.

My son is a heroin addict. He's in jail, partially because a judge took him out of a rehab in Mass and told him he had to go to a non existent bed in RI. While waiting -- again for weeks -- to get into a RI rehab, he got caught buying some dope.

These are the highlights. Then, there's the regular day to day stressors, bills etc. My car just broke down, and I had to spend every penny I had in savings to get another. You know, life happens.

Anyway, I want to die.
Don't get me wrong. I don't want to kill myself. I just wish I was dead.

I went into a major depression years ago. I've been doing very well for the past 5-6 years or so. With all of this going on, especially at work, I am in pain. I want it to stop, and it isn't; it's only getting worse.

Thanks for listening. I know there's nothing you can do. Just venting.

Shalom

03-05-2006, 07:27 AM	#1 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	Just a vent... OK, most of you all know this stuff, as I've posted about it here and there. And I'm not sure I want to post this or not, but, I'm throwing it out there. I've been going through so much stress this year. I moved, and rented my house; it's not working out. The renter is always late; is not doing the work agreed upon for a lowered rent; and just sent me 1/2 of the month's rent. When I called about it, he said he didn't have the rest until this week. I got bumped out of my position as a teacher, and put into a charter school. It's been horendous. There has been a consistent lack of administrative support from the first week. An example will suffice. A girl who swore at me and walked out of class, as asked by the dean of students, at the parent meeting, what I had to do in order for her to come to class! I've been a teacher for over 20 years. When kids cut class; when they swear at teachers and walk out of class, they are disciplined. Not here! This event happened the first week of school! There is a clear political basis for this treatment. The lack of support has now gone to outright hostility. The new principal and the dean both called my old principal, to ask about my behavior, saying I was combative with students. They pulled this stunt right after I filed a grievance against them with my union -- for lack of support. My son is a heroin addict. He's in jail, partially because a judge took him out of a rehab in Mass and told him he had to go to a non existent bed in RI. While waiting -- again for weeks -- to get into a RI rehab, he got caught buying some dope. These are the highlights. Then, there's the regular day to day stressors, bills etc. My car just broke down, and I had to spend every penny I had in savings to get another. You know, life happens. Anyway, I want to die. Don't get me wrong. I don't want to kill myself. I just wish I was dead. I went into a major depression years ago. I've been doing very well for the past 5-6 years or so. With all of this going on, especially at work, I am in pain. I want it to stop, and it isn't; it's only getting worse. Thanks for listening. I know there's nothing you can do. Just venting. Shalom __________________ IMAGINE