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nightingale · 03-04-2006, 02:24 PM

Have just been reading through various posts and threads today and realized I needed to post here again even though it's been awhile:

I continue to be grateful for the process entailed in making amends with another. Over the years I've made amends to numerous folks I've wronged and vice-versa, but nothing could've prepared me for how different, scary, challenging, sorrowful, intense and wonderful these last months have been.

I have been pleasantly surprised on more than one occasion to find this person to be much more conciliatory than he ever was before. I am grateful that my days of shrinking back in fear of his retaliation are beginning to fade away.

Even though there are still some difficult pieces of the wreckage to sort and work through, I sit here in the debris-field and want more than anything to just run away from it. As I turn away in shame and fear of exposure and rejection, I find my Hero, Jesus C. waiting there once again to take me in his ever-loving and accepting arms. He reminds me once again that He loves me and walks with me through this, carrying me whenever need-be. The tender strength of His love gives me great comfort and courage

, for which I am ever-grateful for.

I am grateful for 14 years and 10-2/3rds years of sobriety, which has only come through Jesus C; and for how my emotions are more present to me than they ever were when I was using. I am grateful to have my heart back.

03-04-2006, 02:24 PM	#8 (permalink)
nightingale Paused Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: In JC's arms Posts: 120	Still Grateful Have just been reading through various posts and threads today and realized I needed to post here again even though it's been awhile: I continue to be grateful for the process entailed in making amends with another. Over the years I've made amends to numerous folks I've wronged and vice-versa, but nothing could've prepared me for how different, scary, challenging, sorrowful, intense and wonderful these last months have been. I have been pleasantly surprised on more than one occasion to find this person to be much more conciliatory than he ever was before. I am grateful that my days of shrinking back in fear of his retaliation are beginning to fade away. Even though there are still some difficult pieces of the wreckage to sort and work through, I sit here in the debris-field and want more than anything to just run away from it. As I turn away in shame and fear of exposure and rejection, I find my Hero, Jesus C. waiting there once again to take me in his ever-loving and accepting arms. He reminds me once again that He loves me and walks with me through this, carrying me whenever need-be. The tender strength of His love gives me great comfort and courage , for which I am ever-grateful for. I am grateful for 14 years and 10-2/3rds years of sobriety, which has only come through Jesus C; and for how my emotions are more present to me than they ever were when I was using. I am grateful to have my heart back.