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I hear the fetanyl patches are hell to get off of. I've never had them and I never will because I know I will become addicted to them too. What a young age to become addicted to pain pills. I became addicted at 20 years old. I'm 33 now. I also had a problem with meth too. But definitely prefer narcotics over anything else.
I feel for you with what your going through. What your experiencing now is my biggest fear. I will have you in my thoughts and prayers as well!
My neighbor had just come over and we sat and talked for a couple hours so that was real nice. Kept me busy and kept my mind off my problems. But, as I sit there talking to her I think about how she doesn't have a clue with what I do and what I'm going through. She is an awesome person too. It's crazy how I can be so secretive and no one has a clue with what I'm thinking. I would be sick if she found out that I'm an addict. She seems to have everything together. I mean, she has her problems but she can handle them without drugs! How I envy her right now.
So, did you quit taking pills, etc. cold turkey? The only time I've gone cold turkey is when I just simply ran out of pills. If that happens again, this time I will just go to the E.R. and tell them everything. The reason I never say anything is because I don't want the doctors to quit prescribing me pain meds. It's pathetic! I want to get off them, but I don't want it to be where I can't get them prescribed to me. I suffer from endometriosis too, so they help tremendously with the pain, but I always take them when I'm not hurting too. So it doesn't matter...
Right now I'm wanting to take one and I know I will. I feel so tired right now and I know I can sleep without taking anything. That's how messed up I am (or feel).
Anyways, I guess I'll take it easy for awhile tonight. Hopefully a good movie will be on so I can keep my mind busy.
Have a wonderful evening.
Hugs to you and thanks for replying, it means so much!!! MK
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