Warrior--- I'm giving you a big hug right now. Try the Zoloft and see if it helps you in any way to "get out of the funk." I understand how you do not want to become dependent on a pill for your sanity, but try it and think of it as temporary. If there are adverse side effects or you simply do not like the way it is making you feel, discuss it with your doc. You DON'T have to stay medicated forever.
I'm in my PJs too
. At home with the flu and
actually happy that I don't have to go out and "face the world" today. I myself should be getting my paperwork together and making my own preparations for leaving, but I cannot bring myself to get into the shower and start! I'm not going to beat myself up over this. It will get done and in my own time. It took a while for me to get to this point in my life and it will take a while for me to get out of it. Don't feel like you're running a race. You and me will eventually cross the finish line even if we crawl.