[BigSis]

(((Warrior)))

Have you tried any Alanon meetings? I know, I know.. I can remember thinking - why should *I* have to give up MY precious time and energy to go to meetings!!! SHE (my daughter) is the one with the problem!!! I have said and done ENOUGH!!!

Except... I said and did all those things, and nothing changed. And I wanted things to change.

And what I discovered... was part of the pain I was feeling was self-inflicted. Part of the fear that drove me to seriously consider suicide... was of my own imagination, and under MY control.

I learned those things in Alanon.

I learned that yeah, I CAN'T control the alcohlism, or the alcholic... but I CAN control how I interact... how I react ... how I live with or choose to live without the alcoholism.

Alanon is for ME. It helps ME to feel better. It helps ME to stop having so much rage.

For once... it is all about ME, ME, ME!!!

Now... if you are not addict, and the doc says Zoloft will help - why does there have to be any blame involved?

I haven't considered medicine because I am an alcoholic... actually, I am sort of envious that you have something that might make you feel better.

I do hope you can find some meetings. Rage can eat us up from inside.

I wish you the best.