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hadtoleave · 02-28-2006, 05:51 AM

Please I need some help or suggestions:

I was always told to go to the source - so here’s my problem:
My AH drank for the 1st 25 years of our marriage, went to treatment in 1993 (inpatient) for 6 weeks. On his discharge he went to 1 or 2 AA meetings and refused to return - gave no good reason - said he became aware the people there continued to drink and he did not want to be exposed to it.
Late 2004 I begin to believe he was drinking again. Early 2005 I learned the truth - he was drinking Vodka in his garage. I confronted him and ALL Hell broke lose, he said he started drinking again because he could not handle my mini strokes in 11-2004 and the near lose of my mother in 11-2004.
I left him 6-2005, since I left he’s made “no” attempts to seek treatment, attend AA or stop drinking. It’s been 8 months now since I left, we have daily contact - phone & at our house or my apartment. Last night I got up the nerve to let him know what's going on with me - my meds have increased & very close to a break down. We met for supper - his attitude has not changed, blames me for everything and is still mad that “I” left him.
He refuses to attend AA or go to counseling, told me to come home if I wanted to. He does not talk much and has problems expressing himself. I can’t tell you the last time he told me he loved me - but he has said he doesn’t know if he still loves me. He continues to have “one liners” towards me. He’s very good at insults and letting me know I done wrong.
We will be married 37 years in 6-2006, I can’t believe we are going through all this at our ages, 55 & 54.
“Can anyone tell me WHY he won’t or is afraid to attend AA ?”
Thanks for listening,.
HadToLeave

You can send a private e-mail message - I need to understand the other side of all this.

02-28-2006, 05:51 AM	#1 (permalink)
hadtoleave Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: Tenneessee Posts: 30	Need Help From The Source Please I need some help or suggestions: I was always told to go to the source - so here’s my problem: My AH drank for the 1st 25 years of our marriage, went to treatment in 1993 (inpatient) for 6 weeks. On his discharge he went to 1 or 2 AA meetings and refused to return - gave no good reason - said he became aware the people there continued to drink and he did not want to be exposed to it. Late 2004 I begin to believe he was drinking again. Early 2005 I learned the truth - he was drinking Vodka in his garage. I confronted him and ALL Hell broke lose, he said he started drinking again because he could not handle my mini strokes in 11-2004 and the near lose of my mother in 11-2004. I left him 6-2005, since I left he’s made “no” attempts to seek treatment, attend AA or stop drinking. It’s been 8 months now since I left, we have daily contact - phone & at our house or my apartment. Last night I got up the nerve to let him know what's going on with me - my meds have increased & very close to a break down. We met for supper - his attitude has not changed, blames me for everything and is still mad that “I” left him. He refuses to attend AA or go to counseling, told me to come home if I wanted to. He does not talk much and has problems expressing himself. I can’t tell you the last time he told me he loved me - but he has said he doesn’t know if he still loves me. He continues to have “one liners” towards me. He’s very good at insults and letting me know I done wrong. We will be married 37 years in 6-2006, I can’t believe we are going through all this at our ages, 55 & 54. “Can anyone tell me WHY he won’t or is afraid to attend AA ?” Thanks for listening,. HadToLeave You can send a private e-mail message - I need to understand the other side of all this.