[mistee]

Mg things for ur post i always like what u have to say cuz i know it comes from ur heart i read some of the alanon post

i think my biggest trouble with this is im just missing him a great deal and i know ur son is too he keeps looking for his daddy and saying it too
the thing is this my teen is out researching drugs and drinking which she is in totally deniel about that tough love i have been using all yr is helping me get past the loneliness of having her gone now when she sees me she doesnt seem so hateful right now to me

everyone here has been so supportive since i joined this chat messsage boards im totally grateful for all the support i need to come back more often

right now the thoughts of harm are here and i am fighthing them right now and giving it to hp to deal with them so far i have not cut or harmed me since last july and to me that is a blessing ur totally right about me missing him

but i realize he couldnt stay longer his mom is having major surgery and had it yesterday so my prayers are going to them right now

its been a few days i need to take a warm bath and relax i need to be good to me and stop the worry so much i know we will be together soon aagain cuz i am looking for a travel agency to help me and my son go see him again

the good thing is im not obsessing about this just miss him alot we had an awesome week last week together and built alot of new memories to hold on to

wow it is such a relief to come and share from my heart so much everyone has helped me get thru some hard stuff this last year
but i hate the downside of being bipolar

thanks again for the reads and ur wisdom
hhugs mistee