| Relationships and being bipolar
Hi everyone
Just checking in its been awhile since my last post ....
Something i am facing today that i need to address is recently I have found myself into a new relationship i do care and love this person a great deal ..
when we recently found each other again after several years of not seeing one another i was manic during that time
the last several days i have found myself heading for the dark side of this illness to depression when i called my doc he said to up my meds until i level out some so i feel like a walking zombie right now and it stinks I finding my self totally taken everything the wrong way if he doesn t want to talk to me or if he does i take it the wrong way i find myself taking it all personal and fighting it all the way i know he loves me and i love him
im learning to tel him about this mental illness i have and that is all good so he is aware of the symtoms and he is very patient and loving and understanding too
right now we have 1300 miles that seperate us and it totally bothers me but when i am down i tend to think it is me he is upset with when that isnt really the caase at all he wants his son and i to be closer to him
i am also worried about his mom too she is in recovery for addiction to and the hospital has her pretty dang medicated for the pain she is talk about being powerless and totally having to let god work in there lives and mine to
i hope and pray for the depression can lift soon when i get too down the thoughts of harming me are much stronger and now i have been giving so many blessings and gifts i should be thrilled
well all i can do today is pray that hp hands will help us alot get thru it all
hugs mistee
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