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Old 02-23-2006, 01:09 PM   #78 (permalink)
fitnessgirrl
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Join Date: Jan 2006
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Originally Posted by eddie z.
So, did you call? What did they say? Where you are is so familiar to me!! I went through similar things with my alcoholic first husband. I had to spend a couple of days in the hospital (where I was also given Ativan) to get through it. I wouldn't call Ativan a mild benzo. A benzo is a benzo in my book and I believe they should only be given to inpatients. They are basically alcohol in a pill. Please get rid of the Ativan and get some real professional help!!
I haven't called yet. Basically they refer you to a social worker. The problem is that I think I may be too far gone. Everyday since 2/11 I have had a severe emotional breakdown. I cannot function, sleep, workout, go to work and when I am at work I leave in the middle of the day (this happened 4 times in 2 weeks). Today was really bad and I wasn't coming in at all...it didn't go over well so I forced myself to come in. My bf gave me 2 Ativan's to get me out of my basket case hysterical state. He took 4. They are his pills so it's not like I can just take them anyway.

I can't function like this. I can't handle it. I have never been such an emotional mess. I don't know what to do. I can't lose my job over this but I can't get myself together enough to work. I break down constantly and I have never been like this. I am sitting here at my desk just staring into space.

This is not what I want to feel like and I know if this continues I will end up in the hospital or worse. I feel it. It's overwhelming.
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