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Belief- Its very simple but, I don't like things simple because the answers are always too limiting. I have gotten like 30 or 40 million dollar lottery ticket drawings as winners (not literal) and then later found out a number like changed or something. Like I won, weeee, then woooo... that says 15 not 16. WTF? I believe it everytime. I will aggain too. Truthfully i'm tired. I'm tired of the games...i'm seeing a different way to consider. Stop believing at all, in anything. Who cares? belief is nothing, I know because everytime I believe in something I find i'm wrong. Belief and hope are just there. I cant do away with them. You could tell me something I dont want to here and I garauntee i'll send out the search team in my mind looking for possiblities. Is this stupid? Is this denial? Selling out to me is the worst thing there is. Changing your opinion is based on stong belief is tough and hard to do? Is it stubborn? Is it Pride? Is it Fear? Yeah, and its normal. Sometimes things dont add up, and you know they dont... so you just hold on while your beliefs turn into the way things were before. Now its just this...belif is actually nothing because I have not 1 anchor of truth anymore. Sorry to dissapoint, or maybe happy to please, sort of. Because I'll fight everyone in the world if they are unjust to me. Would it matter...no probably not. it just makes a point about what can I possibly feel good about myself or what can I do about me that is in this mess. None of you will speak. Do you think its spoken to me? I tell you I know everyhting but I know nothing~~~~~floating~~~~~~what would you do? (you who see) if you do then you would help f you do then you would not be this way. Unless>>>> and that proves my point!!!! SEE (no dont), you will but you wont if you let it slide and that well gives you reason to not become like me, and that gives me reason to live and not get what I want but what I need and what I desire in my heart. Believe?...I believe in God and his reasons. I wont ask to many questions...the answers limit what he can do in this thing we call time. That is a measure, and it is not real. it does not exist to me, and it s made me into this (godd or bad) to be or not to be? Choice? yes, but not really, atleat not for me. Thats just me and you, I dont know what youare but I will not give up on you as a person I love unto my heart is ripped from my chest. BLAH>>>>> , dont you see that? Do I? No, I suck, but im spectecular, but im nothing, but im important because im here.
Sorry, Bitter,i am and have reason for me (mind your own you that dont) , ,Believe! JuSt stop believing.
BRADLEY
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