| Anger & me
Last week...I had a major meltdown over something sorta trivial...
It started when the boss asked me why I hadn't done this computer test on "handwashing"...
I had no real good reason, other than the fact that I'd been busy "really" washing my hands & taking care of patients.
Since I was 2 days late, she said something about "diciplanary action"...
Instantly, I was totally PO'ed!!!
I can never talk when I get that angry.
I did the test in about 5 minutes, sorta threw it at her and told her that if she ever said those words "diciplanary action" to me again we'd better be in her office instead of the middle of the nurses station.
Then I had tears streaming down my face and couldn't speak...
Came home & realized that my anger was way outta control, cause I wanted to punch her in the face or tell her to take the job and the test and put them where the sun don't shine!
Part of the reason I know was because I stopped taking my antidepressants about a month ago...I've been increasingly tearful.
I called my P. Doc and restarted my stuff and saw him yesterday and he increased my dose.
So now, I've got an amends to make...
but part of me still thinks that she was way out of line in threatning me with "diciplanary action" for that stupid test.
Suppose I need to pray for willingness and the ability to keep my cool...
Any words of advice?
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