| Codependency,drink & lonliness, will it happen again!
Sh*t, i'm so alnoe, i am thnking about all my past 3 seriouse relationships, wandering what they're doing &b what could've been! The sharing of time wethere it be walking in the park, bedroom sports, dinner, shopping, just doing all together!
I'm so at a loss, i feel i'm in cold turkey & desperate to either be with my ex's or someone that will take their place.
I drink heavily to numb my feelongs, i am a caring nice guy & reminise, look at photos, thnk of what coould've been! Nothing makes this ecape my mind i just don't knoe what to do, i'm so scared i'm never going to feel love again , will it last & if i can handle it if it doesn't!
All i did or they did to stop the relationships, i wouldn't have thought twice aboput carrying it on, i' mean illness drinking, all relationship have to make & make it work, not just give up! I'd stick with anyone if they had issues, i just don't gey it! & am so lonely & thinking of my past!
Gaz
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