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I, too suffer from depression. Had trouble sleeping after getting clean. My mom was depressed and suicidal my whole life...I had a huge fear of being labeled with a psychiatric disorder...but after a year and a half of being clean...I went to a psychiatrist...I wanted him to tell me that I wasn't depressed.
That's when my treatment with antidepressants began...
Trazadone became my best friend. At least now I can sleep when I need to...
It's the depression that still makes me want to sit at home in my jammies, not shower, not clean the house, not go anywhere, not do anything else either...all I really want to do is sleep on my days off.
Somehow decided that they weren't really helping and quit taking them about 3-4 weeks ago...
Bad idea!
Yesterday was one of the worst emotionally draining days I can remember...
Called my Doc and restarted my meds and have an appt next Tuesday.
I have an addictive personality...
I can be addicted to anything that makes me feel different. I have to constantly be on guard about what I am doing...
I "could" be addicted to anything...shoes, shopping, gambling, sex...you name it...
I've also seen many who had another problem such as an eating disorder rear it's ugly head once drinking or drug use was not the issue...
Be very gentle with yourself...
As far as dating...be very careful...I have had one relationship since my divorce was final...
It was with another recovering addict in the program.
It didn't work out.
It's been over a year since I've thought about going out with anyone...I've decided that it will happen on "God's time"...
and I'm waiting for a man who will treat me the way in which I deserve to be treated...
I will not settle for any "fixer-upper" kind of a guy...and he will treat me as the princess or there will be no guy!
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