hey there....i know how you're feeling. Have you tried meditating, reading self-help books, doing relaxation excerzises or keeping a daily gratitude journal?
I hated reading until I started focusing on self-help books and now I love to read them....so many different ideas, suggestions and such to help with depression and anxiety issues.
The gratitude thing is something I fight against, but at times when I've felt my worst lately I just made myself make a list of the things I was grateful for that day. And it REALLY made me feel better. You see, it's been proven that a person CAN NOT be depressed AND grateful at the same time. So make a list right now of 10 things (5 if you're really having a tough time and 20 if you can think of that many)....an SR friend helped me remember that one of the things I can be most grateful for is to have even toilet paper when I need it....LOL
Now some Questions:
-Have you had a full medical work up/physical lately? (Within the past year?)
-Do you snore? Or have other sleeping problems?
-What have you been officially diagnosed with (mentally and/or physically?
Hugs,