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wow - i am happy i found this forum. my addict boyfriend is doing great with his recovery but i (a severe codependent) am having more trouble than ever! now i am worried constantly that he is cheating me - like i have replaced one fear for another. i am working on step 1 right now (im new to all this) and already feel the empowerment that comes from being aware of the problem, but its tough to just all of a sudden be ok. hes doing great being "normal" and its like i dont know how to be "normal" at all. i am obsessed with the idea that this girl (who has no idea of who he was just 2 months ago) and he are messing around. i cant sleep - last night i woke up while he was sleeping so i could go through his phone to see if there was anything suspicious! its tiring and frustrating - why was i happier and more secure when things were so messed up?
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