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Yeah, my two year old came in the room when I was posting this thread & said it was an accident. I said what was? He said mama yelling at her two boys. Made me feel really sad. I apologized & asked him for forgiveness. He forgave. I also apologized to my baby. I told them that mama made a bad choice & was going to work really hard not to do that anymore. Everything for the rest of the day has been good.

I did not have my quiet time this morning, that is probably part of the problem. Also, just being so darn TIRED. I put some caffeine back into my diet today, helped for a little bit, but it is only 1pm & I can hardly keep my eyes open. Ridiculous. I went three years without caffeine, thought it would do more than that. I was tired & could have slept by 10 am. Drank the caffeine between 7:30 & 8. Mountain Dew no less ~ 20 oz. Oh well, just have to try to get over this hump. I am just tired of being tired & never being satisfied with anything. Don't know how to change that mindset. I grew up in a very negative home. All of my siblings are very negative. Parents too. Nobody ever sees the good in anything. Everything is poor me, why me. I do not want to be like this anymore. We are supposed to thank God & find the good in everything. Why is it so difficult for me?