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I was pretty good at the snap shows as well Sugar.
I had to learn how to parent without.
I realized that my daughter was needy... cause she NEEDED me...
and I wasn't there.
I was off in my head... or had my head stuck in the toilet... or gawd knows... ya know..??
Children are the helpless pawns in all this crap... and the last thing I wanted to do was pass on my legacy to my daughter.
It takes work.. and amends.. and work.. and amends...
I know the guilt and shame and all the other feelings that are coming up about this.
This would cause me to use... which would make me crazier.. and I'd be snappier... and round and round we go.
I'm gonna look for some stuff that helped me later... got a full day today...
but.. you hang in there Sugar.
You'll learn a new way...
Just give them all the love you can muster... and don't be afraid to say your sorry when you've crossed the line... and explain to them what's going on with you so that the don't think it's THEM.
You've been working really hard Sugar.. so.. you cut yourself some slack around this .. okay..??
your trying... and you care lots.
that will make it right in the end.
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