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Hello KJS,
I can totally relate. Convincing myself with all false reasons why it would be okay to pick up that bottle of pain meds and just quit the next day, which never happened. In my opinion you are just buying time waiting for the weekend when your husband is home. I would do many things similar to your situation. I would go a few days without using for the reason that I could use more on the days that I did use OR save up pills by doing less and double or triple dosing sometime later. I personally enjoyed using pain meds after a hard days work, at night by myself. It let me forget all the ******** of the day and just relax my mind. So many times I would save up my pills until the night so I could get wasted. Are you exceeding the dose when you wait for the weekend? If not, maybe my "drug addict mind" thinking was a bit different. It will always be easier to "pick up the bottle", in any situation. That is what makes us addicts. I agree with Phoenix, it would be a good idea to go seek a physician before the addiction grows. Good luck
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