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I often find that I feel life so much more in my memories
It funny the things that stay with you and its like it hurts to think about it because things change. Damn I wish I could go back to certain days and live them again or maybe go back and just watch it like a movie. Especially when things are so dull.
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I think it can get better - it has for me. I used to feel so frustrated remembering those days and it always led to wanting to go back. I'm not sure I can pinpoint what exactly changed but something did and I stopped wanting to turn things back and started wanting new things. The best memories are from times when I've forged ahead rather than times I was trying to recreate the past. My memories just make me smile now rather than leave me feeling frustrated and currently unfullfilled. Everything changes, even jobs that seem centuries old - and they'll change again too.
My work situation right now (office job) should send me insane with boredom but instead I use the time to read and learn. Like being dealt a hand at cards stuff that I know I can't quickly change I try to put into use.
I suppose it's looking back for fondness rather than as a way to recreate or have the same feelings I had then. My first thoroughbred gallop, was the only first TB gallop I'll ever have.