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Old 01-13-2006, 08:25 AM   #2 (permalink)
bikewench
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Puurdy...

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I am fearful that if I trust in myself I will F**K up again and again.
I know that fear.

But.. I guess it's not really a fear.. so much as it's been my reality for so much of my life.

I'm sorry about your work situation.
I hate it when people know stuff about me.
Makes me feel defective and vulnerable.
I know I perpetuate the mental health stigma myself doing that.. but.. lol.. I'm workin on it.
One day I'll stand bald faced to the world and tell em all to like it or lump it.
This is me.

I lean heavily on my HP as well.
I lost mine for a while.. so .. I'm really thankful to again feel connected.. and I avail myself of this benificial power in my life like the greedy needy child I am.

I also decry the strain I put on other people.
And sometimes.. I need constant reasurance that people aren't gonna give up on me.. cause I get cycling around that and it takes me crazy..

One day I will stand strong though.
I will not live my whole life in fear... God willing.

It's good to have you onboard Purrdy...
I feel strength in your words.. and I know you've been workin hard.. so.. your gonna add lots of good to SR.. I'm sure.
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