live,
I'm sorry.
It does feel like something inside dies. I'm not sure what that's all about. Sometimes it just feels like there is no care left. It's just too risky to care. Living life on life's terms makes me very angry at times. It's just too terrible to watch loved ones leave our lives. The pain and the suffering is just too much sometimes.
I'm sorry for your grief. I'm sorry you had to go through all of this. Know that we all care and you're not ever alone.
That's why I love it here.
Hugs,
MG