yeah....some people get too over-stimulated on Wellbutrin. I'm on 300 mg and can't really tell that it gives me much energy....I just know I feel better if I take it earlier in the day as opposed to later (cus then I have troubles sleeping too).
But some peeps do well on 150 mg.
From what I know about Lamictal....it's a mood stabalizer that works more on the depressive side of the bipolar than the mania so peeps with severe manias might be ill advised to take it, but i'm no doc. My main problems are the depressive episodes so Lamictal seemed to work best for me, but I still believe that it made me lethargic, but it could have been one of the other meds doing that though....so I'm really not sure. I just know that I feel better off mood stabalizers. Although I'm scared about the progress reprocussions.
I've read that bipolar d. is progressive if unmedicated.....so I'm worried that I might do well for the next 7 years or so and them BAM hit another major episode that is twice as bad as this last one has been (and I don't think I could live through that). So I don't know? My doc is a num-nut....so I can't talk to her about it.
Anyway....Randy...I smiled when you talked about the weight issues, in how you described it I mean, because I feel the same way...short and tubby...webble wobbly
and I wish I could get at least this 40 pounds back off, but right now I'm really more concerned with being able to function and hold down a job. It's been so many months since I saw the light at the end of the tunnel that I don't want to do anything to mess that up right now.....but I have some plans to start working on a few things in the near future.
When you said all that....it made me think back to something my ex said last year. He's one of those kind of guys that girls are always hanging all over him. Us getting together was never suppose to happen, but it did. He was also a very honest man....one of his few GOOD qualities and we were talking about my weight and an old picture of me one day. He had seen a photo of me way before we ever met and I was about 100 pounds lighter in that picture. There were several other girls my age in the pic and I always thought they were all prettier than me. Well....he was in my dad's shop one day and he saw the pic and said, "Oh my gosh, Jim! Who is THAT!".....my dad paused and said, "Ummmm....that would be my daughter!" (In other words.....you'd better watch what you say and DON'T you dare go near her).
On one of his drunken nights at my house he told me if I just lost some of the weight then I would even be out of HIS league. (I took that as a bit of a compliment, but mostly as smack in the face). But then when I said something like, "Yeah, then do you think you could ever fall in love with me?" He said, "Honestly, your more likely to find a true guy who really loves you while you are this size. Someone who will treat you good."
I've thought about that ever since. Yeah, there's something to be said for appearence...heck, even I use to judge guy's weight, but the better of a person I become inside....the less and less I care. Actually, my ex-fiance was skin and bones and I've realized that I'm much more attracted to a bigger guy than a bean pole.
AND....last year I was taking photos at a local highschool basketball game and I saw a guy who I had went to church with as a kid and he looks like your average dork, but now he is married to a gorgeous, could-be-a-model, type girl! At first I was puzzeled, but then I remembered what a really great guy he was....and then it made sense. And I've seen that happen quite a few times. It's all about what's inside! It really is. I think that's part of why so many marraiges fail these days is because society has taught us to be so focused on looks. When you find someone who can love you for who you are now, then and whenever.....that's when you've found true love in my book.
And, as a side note.....I honestly believe that if I hadn't put on the weight when I did, that I would have been married and already divorced a long time ago and I just don't want that for my life. Up until very recently, every guy I was attracted to or fell in love with were all very toxic people and I just never realized how toxic they were until I was made to face it....and even then, I clung onto dangerous hopes.
sorry....I kinda went on a rampage there....heehee.
I've kinda been feeling the itch for a relationship too lately so this is all kinda fresh on my mind, but somehow I've got to maintain my singleness until I'm more stable on several more fronts.
Hugs,