Doug

I can agree with this, and I'm gonna try to expand it a little how it may apply to me..??.....

I remember just about everything from childhood. It was more bad than good. After I grew up and got into the program, I always thought that what I learned, got, received, inherited, etc from my childhood was alcohol/drug abuse.

I never considered my childhood at the time as good/bad/different. I never laid any blame on my parents for "how I turned out".

Some of those things you listed, have come up at my "A" meetings, and in the back of my mind, because I've not heard those at my meetings before, I have had the thought, on occasion that maybe I'm such a severe alcoholic, I won't ever fit into recovery. (Am I clear as mud so far?)

While I can relate to almost that whole list, I've always treated those as "character defects." Some of those things I no longer do, because I've worked very hard to stop.

But there are still other things on that list that I am struggling with, frequently.

I have a sense of relief, knowing now that those few feelings are not due to my own sustance abuse, but rather just the result of growing up in and "Alcoholic Family." Do I blame anyone now? NO Does it really change anything? NO

But now that I may be able to get rid of that "Example of the alkie that won't make it" feeling, maybe I can get past them and move on (?)

Comments, thoughts, questions??