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Judy · 01-07-2006, 04:24 PM

Hi, it's my 2nd day in AA, and it's been great to admit finally to my alcoholism, but it's also been really painful as well. I've been in Al-anon for 2 years so I'm familiar with 12 step programs, but I'm very confused emotionally. I know 'this too shall pass', but I was wondering how long it takes before I stop crying all the time. As soon as I speak to any other AA members, I just start crying, and it's a mix of pain and relief. I know nobody has the answer because everyone is on their own path of recovery, but any words would help me. I think the hardest part for me right now is that I haven't told any friends or family. I'm a binge drinker and have never been told I have a problem - I'm a high functioning alcoholic. I guess I'm just afraid of what my family and friends will think of me. I'm not planning on telling everyone right away, because they don't need to know, but I would like to at least tell my sister, but I am scared. I know that I have a disease and I shouldn't be ashamed, but I am. I tried for about a year to control my drinking so I wouldn't blackout at social events, but as an alcoholic, I have no control.

Any words would be of great help at this time. I'm going to my second meeting today for the second day, and have made phone calls also.

Thanks!

01-07-2006, 04:24 PM	#1 (permalink)
Judy Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: NY Posts: 2	2nd day in AA Hi, it's my 2nd day in AA, and it's been great to admit finally to my alcoholism, but it's also been really painful as well. I've been in Al-anon for 2 years so I'm familiar with 12 step programs, but I'm very confused emotionally. I know 'this too shall pass', but I was wondering how long it takes before I stop crying all the time. As soon as I speak to any other AA members, I just start crying, and it's a mix of pain and relief. I know nobody has the answer because everyone is on their own path of recovery, but any words would help me. I think the hardest part for me right now is that I haven't told any friends or family. I'm a binge drinker and have never been told I have a problem - I'm a high functioning alcoholic. I guess I'm just afraid of what my family and friends will think of me. I'm not planning on telling everyone right away, because they don't need to know, but I would like to at least tell my sister, but I am scared. I know that I have a disease and I shouldn't be ashamed, but I am. I tried for about a year to control my drinking so I wouldn't blackout at social events, but as an alcoholic, I have no control. Any words would be of great help at this time. I'm going to my second meeting today for the second day, and have made phone calls also. Thanks!