[Nina Kay]

Thanks sugars and shutterbug for your loving understanding and welcomes. I guess the truth is that my symptoms do seem major to me, but I didn't think they would to anyone else. I've not been diagnosed with any of the serious things that alot of people are dealing with. I am always under a Drs. care though and am taking an antidepressant at present. I know that depression is connected with hypoglycemia and with fibromyalgia. And they are giving me the antidepressant for a chemical imbalance, which I think is connected because these physical problems are also stemming from physical chemical or hormonal imbalances. I think that most mental illnesses are caused from chemical imbalances in the brain and the body. I could be wrong though. They say that I have anxiety disorder too and I do have some panic attacks. Not as severe as I've heard other people describe theirs though. I don't know, it's just nice to be able to come here and talk about it all with others who understand what it's like. I've had people say many things that make me feel defensive, but I think one of the worst is someone recently telling me that you have to fight it, you can't just lay down and give in to it. That upsets me because I feel that I have been fighting depression and isolation and anxiety with all of my might for most of my life. They don't have a clue that appearances don't tell all of the truth. Sometimes I win and sometimes I lose the battles and sometimes I just get tired of fighting it, but I never completely surrender to it. I am 50 yrs. old now, give me a break. I've fought this ever since I can remember and I'm tired all right. I'm glad to not be alone with this. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}