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no no Shutter...
never doomed...
never say that....
We are exactly where we are supposed to be on our life path... that's what I believe.
I think that God wants me to be tempered in a certain way... so.. he's gonna put certain things in my life...
Hell.. I've been wondering why I wasn't born the poster gurl for "easy life".. ;o).. but hey...
Christina Onassis was very rich.. and she was probably more messed up than you and I combined.
I just think that we have to kinda come at life as some kind of experiment...
and we're the rat.. ;o)....
In an experiment... one can't say that this and this must happen... or have expectations around it...
one must simply put specific circumstances in play...and they let the dynamics take it away...
primary goal...
being happy...
feeling free...
Don't matter where we are now...
we can all come back.
I did it Shutter... and you can too...
you just keep seeking like you are...
talk.. read.. don't let it build...
and I totally get you about mothers and reading shyte that's none of their business...
I freak when my mother gets near my computer...
and she has to look...
grrr...
or books I have laying around...
I hide them when I know she's coming.
and my journal.. I hide from her.
sucks.
but.. she has been the major zinger in my life.. so.. I have to protect myself from her.
for now.
.. and quit with the hurtin eh..
punch a pillow or something...
I use to pull my hair out.
one by one...
a pile at my feet...
I had bald spots.
don't turn it inward Shutter...
give it to God....
praying for you..
and I'm walkin with you ...
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