Ditto Sugah.
I found myself here four months ago asking the same questions. I was a binge drinker mostly, could go for a couple weeks to a month without having a drink, never hid bottles in my closet or laundry baskets, never lost a job, although I remember calling out many times "sick" (i.e. hungover and miserable) the night after a binge, and like Sugah says...the stupid crap I did when i was drunk I would not have done sober.
What really did it for me was getting a copy of the Big Book and reading some of the stories in the back part. I found a couple that I could really relate to, and I saw my progression in some of the most severe, even though I wasn't there yet when I stopped......I did see where I could head and what I still had to lose if I didn't stop. I drank mainly with a mission, either to party all night long or to block out a bad day or something I didn't want to deal with.
The last night I drank four months ago, I knew I had a problem when I started out with a couple mixed drinks and ended up drinking 14 shots of rum because "the drinks weren't erasing my mind fast enough".......all I wanted to do was "take the edge off." It was the next day when I was home sick nursing a wicked hangover that I stumbled upon the pages of SR and realized, yes I do belong here.