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I've just started going to AA meetings and I'm still trying to figure out if its for me. THe only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. do i want to stop??? i dont know. most of the time i do, sometimes i dont..

sometimes i drink and i can stop at one, sometimes i have a few, i dont drink every day and i dont always feel i cant stop at one. i usually stop at 2 or 3 drinks nowadays. i have gone on binges but not for several years. ive been in alanon for 2 years too. i have issues with food and obsessive compulsion sometimes but an aa member called me a dry drunk. sometimes i feel as if i will be heavily resented because i dont seem to be that dependent on alcohol. its just that it makes mne blue and clingy most of the time. in aa i get something though i dont get elsewhere, more understanding of alcoholism. is it possible for drinking to be a random issue and be worse later? cos it only does bad things 80% of the time, lol. iieee, confused.