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bookchick · 12-14-2005, 06:31 PM

First of all, thanks to shutterbug for pointing me in this direction.

I have been treated for depression and anxiety since puberty (I am 31). I have a good relationship with my doctor and have had therapy, and when I take the medication I do pretty well. But a couple of years ago I started to drink, and that's a whole separate issue but obviously ties into depression.

The main issue is that now that I am trying to stay sober, every little thing is bothering me. And big things too. I recently started a new job after being at a totally toxic one for 4 years. While this new job isn't a toxic environment, it's not what I thought it was going to be, nor am I what they thought they were hiring. I feel in over my head and I don't think that people like me all that much. (did I mention that I have about zero self-confidence?

) I find myself constantly tense because I don't want to go back to my old job but don't know how to make this one work.

I worry about my daughter, who is 5, because while she is doing so well right now, I want her to stay that way. And I am convinced that I am doing irreperable damage. She's so bright and entertaining, I don't want to be the one to change that.

My marriage is doing well for now, but I can tell that my husband is getting to the point where it's either shape up or ship out. He's willing to help and be supportive, which is awesome, and he reminds me that I have to be the one to take the first step. So that is what I am trying to do.

I read through some of the other posts here and I can honestly say I teared up because it was reassuring to see that there are people supporting each other who actually know what I am talking about.

Phew - I think that is it for now.

12-14-2005, 06:31 PM	#1 (permalink)
bookchick Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Delaware Posts: 14	New to the forum... feel like crying First of all, thanks to shutterbug for pointing me in this direction. I have been treated for depression and anxiety since puberty (I am 31). I have a good relationship with my doctor and have had therapy, and when I take the medication I do pretty well. But a couple of years ago I started to drink, and that's a whole separate issue but obviously ties into depression. The main issue is that now that I am trying to stay sober, every little thing is bothering me. And big things too. I recently started a new job after being at a totally toxic one for 4 years. While this new job isn't a toxic environment, it's not what I thought it was going to be, nor am I what they thought they were hiring. I feel in over my head and I don't think that people like me all that much. (did I mention that I have about zero self-confidence? ) I find myself constantly tense because I don't want to go back to my old job but don't know how to make this one work. I worry about my daughter, who is 5, because while she is doing so well right now, I want her to stay that way. And I am convinced that I am doing irreperable damage. She's so bright and entertaining, I don't want to be the one to change that. My marriage is doing well for now, but I can tell that my husband is getting to the point where it's either shape up or ship out. He's willing to help and be supportive, which is awesome, and he reminds me that I have to be the one to take the first step. So that is what I am trying to do. I read through some of the other posts here and I can honestly say I teared up because it was reassuring to see that there are people supporting each other who actually know what I am talking about. Phew - I think that is it for now.