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You are right REZ..I never should have messed with this stuff. I did seek medical advice before I used it and they said they didn't see any harm in trying it assuming the ingredient list is accurate and complete. But I equated it to taking a vitamin supplement basically - I never ever realized that herbal concotions could be so powerful - much less addictive. This is my first and last experience with them. I cannot seem to just stop this stuff cold turkey. You feel so run down, congested, fuzzy headed and generally disconnected - sort of like you do when you have a bad sinus infection or upper respiratory virus...that foggy headed cant focus feverish feeling. This my intention to dilute and taper/wean off over a period of atleast a week. I wish I'd done more research into all the ingredients and the effect of each - but again I didn't know enough to know to do that if that makes any sense at all.

I guess that is what is so frustrating about this. I feel sort of stupid for getting wrapped up in this and weak for allowing myself to be controlled by it this way. It seems like it should be so easy to just stop...but not so.

I'm really really scared of any long term effects or damage it may have done to my body. Atleast I KNOW what I was up against when I was addicted to the opiates and knew what to look for where my health is concerned. I have no earthly idea what any of these things can do to your body or what to look for. You said they were herbal stimulants...so I guess that means they could potentially cause heart problems. What a mess. I just feel awful. I know what I have to do and I know that like anything else I need to apply the steps and work the program and let others help me through this. I've got to talk to my husband...I can't handle having secrets like this from him...it makes me feel horrible. He is such a wonderful man. I have a beautiful family..and I feel so bad that this has happened. I just never realized...never meant for this to be this big. Lots of people take supplements and herb for health reasons and I just thought of it no different.