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Jo,
Dry drunk is like an "emotional hangover". Meaning; a person can go into a "using" mind frame without actually using and still have the same types of behaviors.
Here's my example...Last year I was having a tough time with acceptance...felt that my anger towards what I needed to accept was justified so I refused to accept what I needed to accept. I focused so much on that...then feel into a "poor me" mindset. Well, then it went to "poor me, poor me" ; everything started looking all doomy and gloomy and then we got to the self-loathing/self-hatred, I'm not any good, I don't deserve to be here, what's the point anyway feelings...which basically, I was emotionally exactly were I was when I was drinking...I was sober going through emotionally the same crap I did when I was drunk. Thankfully for my Divine Power, 2 fantastic sponsors, getting off my butt and doing step work, and the help and love of all my fellow AA'ers...I didn't drink. There were many times, many days where I wasn't so positive I was going to see my next anniversary. Thankfully, I did and soberly received my token.
Hopefully that helps,
Jen
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