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I've got to watch myself, and make sure I don't get over confident or complacent. When I do, I often loose touch with my HR. I thought I'd be more likely to fall off the wagon when life wasn't treating me well...as opposed to...things are going great and I feel invincible. I could just as eaisly pick up a drink because life is fantastic, as I could because things really suck.

I don't think a relapse, for me anyway, would be a sudden thing...out of the blue. Feeling over confident and cocky tonight wasn't going to drive me to the liqour store. Over time, however, over confidence/cocky-ness could slowly lead me back towards familiar stomping grounds........ When I was drinking heavy, I could never be wrong. Everything was about ME. I didn't care what anybody thought about ME, and I was fighting my battles ALONE.

I got on my knees tonight, and prayed to my HR that I could be a part of God's plans.....I prayed that I could do things God's way, not my own. When I do things my own way, I drink.
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