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findingout · 11-15-2005, 03:23 AM

Hey requiredfield,

This is an interesting thought to consider. Thanks for bringing it up

If I were to stand up in my home group and say "Hi my name is Tony and I've started drinking again and it's better and I have no problems with it," I can think of three responses I would likely receive:

1. Yet.
2. So why are you here?
3. Good for you, but that is a message I don't need to hear.

At best, successful controlled drinking can only be measured like successful sobriety - one day at a time. I want more than that. I want a guarantee that if I return to drinking I will never, ever, even one time, get behind the wheel of a car drunk. I want a gaurantee that alcohol would never again cause me to hurt someone I love. I want a guarantee that alcohol would never again cause me to miss an oppourtunity to grow as a human being.

Nobody can honestly give me that guarantee. But if I leave the alcohol in the bottle, on the shelf, at the store, I can guarantee that alcohol will not be the cause of any problems in my life that I can control. If I go farther than that and work the steps to the best of my ability, I am promised that I will "know a new freedom and a new happiness" and that I will "comprehend the word serenity and I will know peace." So far, in my life, these promises have actually come true for me and I have this feeling that I would have to give that up to some degree if I were to return to "successful" drinking. Of course, I don't actually know that to be a fact but today I am unwilling to try it unless someone can give me a guarantee that it would be better for me.

One Love, One Heart,
Tony

11-15-2005, 03:23 AM	#15 (permalink)
findingout Not the center of the Universe Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Orchard Lake, Michigan Posts: 762	Hey requiredfield, This is an interesting thought to consider. Thanks for bringing it up If I were to stand up in my home group and say "Hi my name is Tony and I've started drinking again and it's better and I have no problems with it," I can think of three responses I would likely receive: 1. Yet. 2. So why are you here? 3. Good for you, but that is a message I don't need to hear. At best, successful controlled drinking can only be measured like successful sobriety - one day at a time. I want more than that. I want a guarantee that if I return to drinking I will never, ever, even one time, get behind the wheel of a car drunk. I want a gaurantee that alcohol would never again cause me to hurt someone I love. I want a guarantee that alcohol would never again cause me to miss an oppourtunity to grow as a human being. Nobody can honestly give me that guarantee. But if I leave the alcohol in the bottle, on the shelf, at the store, I can guarantee that alcohol will not be the cause of any problems in my life that I can control. If I go farther than that and work the steps to the best of my ability, I am promised that I will "know a new freedom and a new happiness" and that I will "comprehend the word serenity and I will know peace." So far, in my life, these promises have actually come true for me and I have this feeling that I would have to give that up to some degree if I were to return to "successful" drinking. Of course, I don't actually know that to be a fact but today I am unwilling to try it unless someone can give me a guarantee that it would be better for me. One Love, One Heart, Tony __________________ Yes, I am an alcoholic. But that's not all that I am...