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Originally Posted by tyler You are kinda up and down emotionally it sounds like. Of course I can only tell from what you post, but I know when I get like that it is really a danger sign. Anyway, I hope you at least stick around here, you would be missed. Take care. |
Well I think that I might have been miss interputed here but that is OK>>I am doing really well actually, I have been doing my meetings, working on my steps, etc, etc...But I just get so damn mad when people, gossip about people and then when someone of 10 years of sobriety goes back out a few of them think that it is funny. I don't see anything funny about that, it is sad. I know when I said that I am driving a stake in my ground that I am going to keep doing what I have been doing.
I have found my way I think and it is not my way it is the AA and NA way. I am so grateful for life today, for a chance again at sobriety, for a chance do do things different. GOD = Good Orderly Direction, Doing the NEXT RIGHT THING, Karma, whatever I am open to alot of things here. I am been being a productive member of society, and that is tuff stuff, sometimes I wonder if it is all worth it yet when I look back over my first step I know damn well that it is worth all the pain that I have to go through. I look at my second step and I know that there is hope.
I am not leaving SR I don't think that I implied that but maybe I did when I said "I wish you all the best" Well I didn't mean it to say that I was leaving SR I do wish you all the best in finding whatever works for you. We all have to find our own reason to stay, we can quit anytime but learning how to stay stopped is my goal today. Ok I have to go clean up and get ready for a meeting that is MY RECOVERY as well..
Love Vic