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Ashes.
I could have written your post a year ago. All those conflicting emotions and thoughts devouring me back then. Just waiting to die. Wanting to STOP but not being able to. Feeling so worthless.
It sounds like you are there, at the crossroads. You are reaching out. That is good. Something in you wants life desperately. Something in you wants to express itself. You are the person you dream of...already. You are just buried under all the guilt, fear, and shame.....you are in there. I promise you.
AA helped me shed the worn, tired, sick idea of myself and become the person I am....happy, joyous, and free.
All the love in the world,
Tanya
PM me if you like.
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