[Don W]

I understand both your points. I think sometimes this is all part of the process of recovery. Things blocked out for years coming to the surface. I take the raw information and process it. It is painful and difficult but, deal with it I must. For years I'd avoid or drink them back inside. I have found out, not to long ago, that he was mentally ill. Sometimes these flare ups help put things into perspective. This might sound strange but, to be happy about his demise and hate him, reminds me of him.
Resentments and revenge were his stong suit. I learned and practice them for years. I can see right now, that to contiue these behaviors will keep his, legacy if you will, alive inside me. I don't know, I could be wrong but, I need to be better than the behavior he showed and I learned. Maybe, the perspective that I was glad his behavior died, would be better. I must stop the cycle of past learned behavior which slows or stops my recovery. Thanks for your help.