[NoMoBeer]

I was earlier excited to race tomorrow. Things changed at home, ugly, emotional, accusing to me, bottom line -- I was close to a drink, and I knew it. I just wanted to check out -- f#ck triathlon, f#ck sobriety, just get me the hell out of here.... Had the car keys, walking out to the car.... thank God I had my cell phone.

Talked to my sponsor. With AA, I always have someone to call before I make that mistake. We talked, I cried. He got me through not wanting to drink, and not feeling like I'm a piece of sh!t. I got on my knees and prayed. I hope I make it through tonight, and hope I actually do my race tomorrow. I've prepped so much in time and money and physical training, but an emotional derailing can have so much power to us Alkies... Thank God for my sponsor, and thank God for AA.

I am going to bed sober. By the Grace of God....

I love you all...

Ken