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livingfree · 10-21-2005, 11:36 PM

I'm new to this whole bipolar thing. I don't understand it and I'm not really sure how to deal with this title. I was diagnosed about nine months ago when I went into a treatment program. First they said that I was anti-social and borderline personality disorder. Tried me on some meds and those didn't work, so I went back and they said that it was bipolar. Now I'm taking Welbutrin and Seroquel. I still have times when I feel like my whole world is crashing in on me and the only thing that I can do is just stay in bed and hope that the world will just go away and leave me alone. I am in a long term relationship and he lives 2 hours away. He says that he understands and is very supportive but he isn't there when I feel like I'm losing my mind. I can't even visit my children when I feel like this. The hard part is that I work in a job where I deal with people who are MR and MI and some of them are taking the same meds that I am. I am afraid that I will end up where they are sometimes. I still have thoughts that my children and family would be better off without me, after all my kids don't even live with me. I don't know what else to do or where to turn.

10-21-2005, 11:36 PM	#1 (permalink)
livingfree Member Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Somewher in my head Posts: 22	BiPolar? I'm new to this whole bipolar thing. I don't understand it and I'm not really sure how to deal with this title. I was diagnosed about nine months ago when I went into a treatment program. First they said that I was anti-social and borderline personality disorder. Tried me on some meds and those didn't work, so I went back and they said that it was bipolar. Now I'm taking Welbutrin and Seroquel. I still have times when I feel like my whole world is crashing in on me and the only thing that I can do is just stay in bed and hope that the world will just go away and leave me alone. I am in a long term relationship and he lives 2 hours away. He says that he understands and is very supportive but he isn't there when I feel like I'm losing my mind. I can't even visit my children when I feel like this. The hard part is that I work in a job where I deal with people who are MR and MI and some of them are taking the same meds that I am. I am afraid that I will end up where they are sometimes. I still have thoughts that my children and family would be better off without me, after all my kids don't even live with me. I don't know what else to do or where to turn.