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I don't touch alcohol anymore because I can't stop once I do. My dad, who brought me up, started drinking heavily a few years ago. After not touching alcohol, all my life.
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At 21 you've been through so much and in leaving the alcohol behind you've shown so much strength and guts - there's a part of you that's VERY VERY strong. Getting some help will just make that process inside easier for you to live through. I guess as your Dad brought you up he was part of what instilled that self respect in you despite what's happened in recent years, that's not such a bad thing to do with a life.
I know the feeling of wanting to scream some sense into someone - I think probably everyone does here, it's so human to make it louder when it seems someone can't hear! But you have to also live your life too - because it's so valuable and precious and you have your own things to give, learn, have and share.
It's not about volume or anger, someone with a lot of sense once told me strong words are when the heart and mouth speak the same language. However loud you shout if it's just in anger and at someone who you really love then the heart and mouth can't speak the same language and what you say becomes weak.
If you can be true to YOUR heart and YOUR life you'll be able to have the strongest words of all. That may not change someone else's decisions, not even someone you love but it will bring you some peace.
Sorry to write so much sloppy stuff but your post is so incredible, what you have lived with so young and your wisdom in your own decision with alcohol. Most people at 40 would struggle to be as wise - I don't know that I will ever be.
Take so much care of yourself - you really are someone special.