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cassiek9 · 10-17-2005, 04:27 PM

Thanks everyone for this community and being so understanding. There is nothing that can be done for him. He is going against doctor's orders again, that leaving can cause death. I don't know why I want to keep knowing what he's going through. Elizabeth, wow... Jail, homelessness, and losing everything. This has to be the most powerfully destructive disease known. I can't believe it's happening to the most important person in my life, after he brought me up so well.

I can't walk into a store without seeing the Christmas ornaments and decorations and just remembering the best times of my life, and the person who made it possible never enjoying them again. Much less with me. We were so incredibly close, I really don't want to live once he's finally succeeded in killing himself. He's gone. That's it.

Really, though, if they don't want help then what? I just want to SCREAM some sense into him. And tell him what he did to his girlfriend. What he's doing to the rest of his family. How much he's hurting me. He's a smart person. This just can't be happening. There has to be a way.

I think it's time for me to try and figure out how to get help.

10-17-2005, 04:27 PM	#4 (permalink)
cassiek9 Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: Portland OR Posts: 4	Thanks everyone for this community and being so understanding. There is nothing that can be done for him. He is going against doctor's orders again, that leaving can cause death. I don't know why I want to keep knowing what he's going through. Elizabeth, wow... Jail, homelessness, and losing everything. This has to be the most powerfully destructive disease known. I can't believe it's happening to the most important person in my life, after he brought me up so well. I can't walk into a store without seeing the Christmas ornaments and decorations and just remembering the best times of my life, and the person who made it possible never enjoying them again. Much less with me. We were so incredibly close, I really don't want to live once he's finally succeeded in killing himself. He's gone. That's it. Really, though, if they don't want help then what? I just want to SCREAM some sense into him. And tell him what he did to his girlfriend. What he's doing to the rest of his family. How much he's hurting me. He's a smart person. This just can't be happening. There has to be a way. I think it's time for me to try and figure out how to get help.